Five generations ago, my family settled in the same square mile of land upon which I live today. I am proud of my German Lutheran heritage.
My first memory is from the age of 16 months, when a 50-year blizzard hit our town. I have a strong visual memory from that point forward. My memories are often tied to deeply emotional events.
My parents divorced when I was 4 1/2 years old. At the time we lived in the finished basement of my paternal grandparents, people of strong faith. They graciously allowed my mother (their daughter-in-law), my sister, and I to live with them for several years. My mother came to a saving faith in Jesus Christ soon after the divorce. These family members deeply impacted my faithwalk.
I attended a private Christian school connected with our church. My mother became heavily involved in various ministries there. At the same time, she found work at a tax office which required long hours for months on end. When we moved into our own home, I faced the common challenges of growing up in a single-parent home, such as loneliness, excessive fears, extra responsibility, and constant frustration.
We visited my father regularly. He remarried right after the divorce, and I had a hard time acclimating to the change. I moved toward Dad for a while, when Mom got remarried one week after I turned 13. Then a perfect storm occurred: my difficult transition between private and public school, dysfunction in both homes, and the grief after my best friend moved 100 miles away. I sank into a deep depression. At age 16 I entertained suicidal thoughts, even though I had experienced spiritual rebirth a couple months earlier. God himself lifted me out of the depression, and he put a call on my life that year. At a James Taylor concert, he whispered, “You will be a writer.”
That call has taken many years to come to fruition. Over time, and especially through my marriage, God broke my spiritual strongholds of passivity, repressed anger, judgment, perfectionism, and fear. He specifically used my trials to prepare me for the work I have to do today.
I began writing my memoir in August 2012. In bits and pieces on this blog, I will share parts of my story with you. I will post a few times per week in these categories: Musings on teachings and readings, Poetry that combines my loves of art and writing, and Devotionals on scriptures which have helped me out of spiritual bondage.
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